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Good News!

I just four of that my application for the Anchor Archive Zine Residency for 2009 was acceted! It looks like I’ll be spending two weeks in Halifax, Nova Scotia submersing myself in zine more than usual! I have been accepted for October which I imagine will be chilly in Eastern Canada but it will be awesome!

I have been kicking around the skeletons of the twists and turns of the love story between Paul and I which is also the flipside, of Brainscan 21. I’m hoping that the love story will make the crawling out of an abusive relationship more palletable… or vice versa if you are into that sort of thing. It has been extremely difficult to write because there is so much history, arguably 12-17 years of it. It is hard to write about something and sort out the important bits when there is just so much.

Paul has been working on the original soundtrack for the zine and he is basically done with his part. It loosely tells his story. Some of the music is here if you wanna listen to it and the whole thing ends with a song where I sing back up with a fitting chorus “There’s a lot in life you can’t explain” I’m hoping that a continent’s distance will give me space to write and time to miss him and really reflect and remember what that deep sense of space felt like.

I don’t think they have a photocopier which sort of puts a damper on the layout process. I already have the cover and even the size the zine will be. it will be half legal sized with vellum or transparency covers that have an image of a Brainscan and say: Pre-existing conditions. Strange that in almost 12 years of doing my zine I have never used and MRI on the cover, eh?

On top of all that I am hoping to first hit up the Richmond Zine Fest in Virginia for my second time. I had a lot of fun last time and met some awesome people… and one adorable dog. I’m also excited to try to go to CanZine in Toronto. I have never been to Canzine or Toronto for that matter! Oooo and maybe I can go to West Virginia! I have now been to ever state but West Virginia, I’m going to have to start working on provinces next!

It is looking to be a gloomy day in Portland so I’m going to force myself out of bed to get down to my office for some work and also make some tofu scramble and vegan biscuits and gravy.

Better things than Valentine’s Day…

Paul and I don’t celebrate holidays like Valentine ’s Day. Even when we dated when we were younger we thought it was just silly. We don’t celebrate Valentine’s but we do celebrate the whole month of March and every full moon, more on those at another time.

Every time I write or talk about Paul to someone new or somewhere new I feel like the back story is in order. The short of it:

We met over 15 years ago in Utah, started dating 10 years ago and dated for 2 years. Paul broke my heart and I moved to Portland. We spent 5 years not talking to each other. After 5 years we found each other again and through many complications he moved to Portland and we have been living together for almost 3 years to the day.

We make each other very happy. We give each other enough space for our own projects and make time to share crucial awesmoeness with each other. I am very thankful that we each had time to grow up so that we could be together again. I love that we came from the same geographic and musical location and timeline. I am grateful for a partner that supports me, trusts me, respects me, appreciates me and my work and that we can celebrate each other’s accomplishments.

So, even though we don’t celebrate Valentine ’s Day there are two cool things going on tomorrow. The first is that the Murder City Devils are doing a reunion tour and their Portland show is Saturday. My sister and I were stoked so I got four tickets for some sort of weird default Valentine’s double date with her and Mr. Bolsh. I think we first saw the Murder City Devils in Utah in the basement of DV8 in 1998 with The Queers. I remember drinking in the bar  upstairs with Paul. That seems like a long time ago. I also saw them at the second to last show here in Portland in 2001. This show should be fun.

And that is also the same day as Zwickelmania, the Oregon Breweries open house. Mmmm craft beer!

I started drinking when I was dating Paul in the 90’s when I was 20 years old. He is 6 months older than me and was the one who bought me beer. He was a beer snob and by the transitive property I became a beer snob. I never drank in high school so I was spared the stupid youthful binge drinking, and with paul’s help, I skipped right to appreciating porters and stouts.

Beer is one of the reasons I  moved to Portland. Hell, Paul and I came to Portland for my 21st birthday… for the beer! Craft beer is some think we thoroughly enjoy brewing and drinking, more so the drinking.So having a valentine’s beer open house date and a show is just right up our alley.

Tonight though, Paul, Androo and I are going to see this weeks episode of Battlestar Galactica at The Bagdad, one of Portland’s fine brewery theatre pubs!